Reflection

Fourteen years ago today I married Elwood. Since that time a lot has changed in my life. Eight years ago I filed for divorce and two months later I became a widow instead.

I have learned that no matter what life throws at me I can handle it with the Lord's help. As I reflect on the last eight years since Elwood's passing I find that I have struggled with loneliness, finances, and at times with my spirituality. But as I look back to what has gotten me through all my struggles it has been my Heavenly Father, family and friends.

Heavenly Father and all of my family have stood by and continued to love me no matter how stupid some of my decisions were. Friends have come and gone but I have a few that have stuck with me over those years. One of these friends stood beside me the day Elwood was found dead in his motel room and has been there whenever I needed a listening ear. We have had some great conversations in a wide range of topics and at any time of day or night.

I have grown in the gospel and in my day-to-day life. I even took a huge leap of faith and moved to Idaho Falls not knowing a soul up here. But I found a new life on my own. For the very first time in my life I lived totally by myself. I found that I could do it. I started really getting into the singles program. I have built several close friendships here and wouldn't trade this experience for anything.

I also have found that I am able to move forward with life. Tonight, I will share with the new love of my life, Nick, the good parts of my marriage to Elwood.

On this day I am also remembering my Aunt Rene. I will miss her but know that she is reunited with her parents and Granddad Al and Grandma Maxie. She was always full of love and caring for anyone who walked into her life. She taught by that example.

Love you both, Elwood and Aunt Rene, for all you have taught me in my life.

Much to my surprise the Friday before Mother's Day I got a text message from my roommate which said, "You got flowers!" I sent back "What?" Because I don't ever get flowers delivered unless it is in person from anyone. Ryan sent me flowers for Mother's Day! What a wonderful and beautiful gift.

I received just as thought and wonderful gifts from both of my daughters. Megan and Jeff sent a card with a beautiful message. Ashlee called and left me a message wishing me a Happy Mother's Day.

Mother's Day for me was a wonderful day. I spent it attending my church meetings and serving other mothers in a care center. A few of the choir members went to a Care Center and sang for Mother's Day. I felt like I was one of those primary children in sacrament meeting singing to their mothers. Then Nick made a wonderful meal for both Marilyn and I.

Hope all Mother's (Mom, sisters, aunts, cousins and friends) in my life had a wonderful Mother's Day.