It's been a long week of struggles and accomplishments. Struggles keep creeping into life. I know that Heavenly Father does not give us more than we can handle. But today I feel like everything is crashing down around me. I started to see a little light at the end of the tunnel with a job interview on Wednesday. Then a little bit more light was shed when I received a call on Friday to schedule a 2nd interview for the job I was interviewed for on Wednesday. Saturday a little more light was shed but comes with more struggling feelings. Been the sessions of conference on Saturday we went and looked at a duplex for rent. This unit is located on a pensula on Lake Iola. It will meet our needs. The struggle is with the deposit, rent, and utility hook-up we need to come up with around $1200. Currently that is $1200 more than we have.
Today in the afternoon session of confernce Elder Pratt spoke about tithing. Before that talk I felt like I was good in paying a full tithe. However, I had questioned Nick on how we should be paying tithing with him being self-employed and receiving advances on his services. That lead to more contemplations on what we should pay tithing on. We are currently receiving help for food from the state and then help for rent and auto insurance from the church. We have some different views. But after hearing the talk on tithing, I feel better at ease at the decission Nick and I came too. But now I pray that I can have enough faith that the Lord will provide for our upcoming urgent needs...Gas for the car to get to interviews, to work when it is offered until the first paycheck comes in..and money to do the laundry so that we have clean clothes for the interviews, work and church.
I know that I am sounding whiney. I do have lots to be grateful for even in my time of struggles. I have a husband that is loving and caring to share in my burdens and I am not doing this on my own. I have children that are a blessing in my life. I have grandchildren that make me smile each time I think of them. I have friends that have always and will always be there to give that boost of encouragement. I also have parents, siblings and their spouses that are also their for those encouraging boosts. I also have my Heavenly Father that will love and help me if I give him my struggles and faith.
I will continue to be faithful and do what I can to live up to what my Heavenly Father wants me to be. I know he is always there.
I am so grateful for the gospel in my life! Only great things come from the Lord.
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